avoidant

by dietz

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the second single from my second full-length album. more on the way. hope you enjoy.

the instrumental for this song was produced by my good friend hazel (aka space cadet) -- fae is one of the most talented musicians i know, and you should absolutely listen to faer new album at hazelspacecadet.bandcamp.com/album/amusia

lyrics

if you ask me how i'm doing i'll say that i'm fine
is it okay to fall asleep alone every night
every fucking feeling man i just i gotta destroy it
dodge affection like it's bullets fuck i have to avoid it

i've convinced myself to not care at all
convinced myself that she'll never call
so in the end who's responsible?
it can't be me, that's impossible

and i don't wanna, don't wanna admit that i'm wrong
so i'm just gonna, just gonna pretend that i'm wronged
and if i'm gonna live to worry another day
can't listen to my heart and let it lead me astray (okay!)

i'm telling you
don't try to get to close
i'm telling you
i'll work it out then choke
(repeat)
i won't try to find the words to say i'll work it out another day
(repeat)

if you ask me how i'm doing i'll say that i'm fine
is it okay to fall asleep alone every night
every fucking feeling man i just i gotta destroy it
dodge affection like it's bullets fuck i have to avoid it

and after every single person in my life is gone
i'll sit by myself and wonder what i did wrong
and if i'm the one that pushed everyone else away
turns out that my heart wasn't what led me astray (okay okay okay okay)

whoaaaa (repeat)

now that i've found out what is the matter with me
it doesn't fucking matter cause there is no way to change that i can see
so am i destined to live a lonely life?
who made me this way?
and can i survive?

i've convinced myself to not care at all
convinced myself that she'll never call
so in the end who's responsible?
it can't be me, that's impossible

if you ask me how i'm doing i'll say that i'm fine
is it okay to fall asleep alone every night
every fucking feeling man i just i gotta destroy it
dodge affection like it's bullets fuck i have to avoid it
(repeat)

credits

released January 7, 2021
john dietz -- vocals, mixing, add'l production, mastering
hazel woodfall -- guitars, bass, drum programming, production, mixing

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